How we express ourselves to ourselves in our free time is completely up to us. It’s our prerogative.
But if you then want others to care about what you make, then you really need a meaningful intention that doesn’t just concern you.
Because when we believe that all we should ever do is what feels good to us without considering an audience, it’s as absurd as masturbating in front of one and wondering why no one else is enjoying it.
Self expression is primarily for yourself.
Art is for yourself and your audience.